Saturday, September 22, 2007

Wednesday, September 19, 2007

Yeah Yeah Yeah

OK... So I haven't blogged in a while. Well, neither have you so get off my back. Since we last talk a lot has change so I will just get to the point.

When Dede and I got back from Nicaragua we had only what can be described as Ortega's Revenge. (That's only because Nicaragua didn't have a Montezuma) We tried to recover by just sitting around the house for a few days. Instead all we did was sit around the bathroom. We'd be talking to each and at the same time we'd get the "urging for a purging" if you know what I mean. We'd come back in a few minutes (sometimes longer) and continue our conversation like nothing happened. I love my wife.


Well I got better but Dede's issues continued. So off to the doctor we go. It was a quick visit. A few pleasantries here and there and off you go with your antibiotics. While her body was probably already over the worst of it she took the meds and go better in two days. Come on Jesus! (You have to say it like Jaime)

Well, after that it was business as usual. The week flew in and out with no real milestones to report. I would like to introduce a new segment to the blog. It's called. "What The..." It will be the central location of all of lifes little "what the..." moments. For example. Dede and I were in a Kroger and a random dude starts walking off with our grocery cart. Dede's purse is prominently sitting on top of it screaming; "Hello, and No I'm Not Yours!" I grabed the cart and say; "Excuse me. (While putting the hand out... as if to say... "Ummm, you must be confused.") He sees me and snaps out of his "Where do they keep the Mesquite" daze and realizes that he's about to catch a beat down from angry black man who obvious has very few social skills. He chuckles and walks off with his cart.... yep! the empty one! Hello McFly! Anyway.. Everyone say Hello to the "What The..." Yep I think he's here to stay.

Well I have been excused of writing to much so... holla at ya lata. (That's black for I'm gonna go now. I will write more later. See ya, Bill.)

Nes

Friday, September 7, 2007

Hello Team!

Hello Everyone!!




Dede and I hope everyone is doing great. We can't wait for the party at the Rossi's place. Yee Haw!!

Well, below is a day to day blog of everything that happened on the trip... well from my point of view at least. We have also finished uploading all the pictures as well. Feel free to download, copy or print whatever you would like. I only ask that you ask the person who took the picture before using them in any commercial printings.

Have fun and we can't wait to see everyone again.


Avery and Dede Nesbitt


Photos can be found here. Click Here! Click Here! Click Here!

Please feel free to comment here and on the photos.

Thursday, September 6, 2007

Will the Real Men Please Speak Up!

OK. So, let’s just let it all out. If a Pastor can say; “I like sex!” at church then anything goes. I won’t win any Manly Man of the Year awards but I’m sick of acting like it’s not an issue. Where is it defined that men are built to be this brave, bold, strong and emotionally void person that fears not and feels not. I am sick of being defined by my favorite sport. “Hey, are you a Football Guy?” I’m sick of every men’s ministry starting off with a 10 minute clip of The Gladiator. (Russell Crowe through his phone at someone. You don’t get less manly than that.) I’m sick of being told to find my “inner man” I have to hit the woods, play in the dirt and somehow through the pending rash I will find the “grizzly” that’s been locked up inside of me. It’s all crap.

Listen, I was in the United States Marine Corps for 6 years. I have done things and seen things that I won’t tell my own wife about. Things that don’t need to be repeated; by me or anyone. And you know what… today… as “Wild At Heart” as I get is drinking expired milk and going 10 over the speed limit. Why? Cause I want to. Am I less of a man? Am I somehow no longer a man because I can’t name the last time I had the urge to go “camping.” I’ve sleep under the stars in more desserts than I can name. Thrill is gone. But even if I hadn’t gone to the Corps, I still reject this whole notion that men eat bloody steaks, grunt at power tools and have long ago shed the need for pesky emotions. I have emotions and from time to time I use them.

So let’s cut to the chase. Men, everyone of them… whether they tell you or not… have fears, shortcomings and worries. There I said it. So guys; instead of hiding behind this wall of testosterone how about we actually pretend to be human for once. I know, I know … but it’s just this one time. Then, just a quickly as you came, you can go back to the shallow empty life we can manhood; where nothing hurts and he have all the answers.

Well you keep reading, so down with the facades. See, doesn’t that feel better. See ladies; the man in your life: dad, brother, friend, more-than-a-friend, husband, cousin twice removed… has things he probably will never tell you, but he thinks about them a lot. So… a few guys who aren’t scared to drop their guard a little (myself included) are gone let you peek in a little… inside the reality of being a man.

10 Things (or less) that I think about (that others… even men… might not know)

10. I fear something happening to me and not being about to support my family.
9. I often worry if I’m ready to be father.
8. I often wonder if this fairly tale life I have (Beautiful Wife, Awesome
Church, Great Job) will fall apart one day… and will it be by my own hands.
7. I worry that my wife will get (really) sick and I not be able to take care of
her.
6. I worry about her having a problem free pregnancy.
5. I worry that my wife will begin to resent having to be the “smart one.”
4. I often wonder is my wife is really happy or did she just settle.
3.
2.
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So, there it is. Raw, unedited… just there. OK, guys… your turn… unless you couldn’t get your mask off in time.

N


Buy hey, I could be wrong... let's have pie.

Monday, September 3, 2007

Pics of Nic

Well, the trip has come to an end and I have uploaded over 2K worth of pictures for everyone to see. I only ask that you do not use the pictures on commercial or "for profit" items without premission. It's only right, right? Thanks.

More to come...



Nes



Sunday, September 2, 2007

Day 5

Day 5

Good day! The lights have stayed on throughout the night and the room is nice and cold. It’s about 6:05 and breakfast is at 6:30. I woke Dede so we could get ready but she says breakfast is at 6:45. I don’t think so but we better get their at 30 after to be safe. Lyn and Phillip are outside and they’re heading to the kitchen as well. I guess, if we’re early, well be in good company. We made it to the kitchen and breakfast is indeed at 6:30. Nothing like bad information to start out your morning.

Everyone makes it inside and Mike prays over the meal. He said we have to get moving; long day ahead of us. We enjoy a nice meal of fruit, Tampico and…all together now… Gallo Pinto. We all have grown to love it really. I was gonna get more eggs but I was too tired to move. Mike stood up and opened us up for devotion. Johnson was the speaker of the day. He talked about being strong, not giving up and knowing that God is coming soon. It was really good. Lot of amen’s! We all gathered and prayed for the trip and headed out. We’re going to Las Cruses today. It’s where we built the church a few years back. We love that city. MAD told us that they have done an awesome job. The pastor there is gone but a new man has taken his place and step everything up a lot. We can’t wait to see it.

We all go back to the rooms and get ready to leave. I put on my basketball shorts because I didn’t want to get concrete on my pants. Maybe this time I can stay bug bite free. We head out to the bus and load up the all the toys. Jenny found a new Med Pack that we hadn’t used yet. Thank God cause we we’re low. We head out and take off. Dede and I always wear our flip flops out to Las Cruses. It’s a hour and a half drive up and down and the last thing you want to do it wear big heavy shoes. We pack our boots into BAS truck and take off.

The drive up was breathtaking. We made it up the mountain and saw some of the most beautiful sites you could ever see. I tried to catch up on my writing and Dede took the pictures. She got some really good shots. I can’t wait to see them. Mike is in front of us in the pickup and the rental van is behind us. Everyone is together but we can see each other because of these big dirt trucks. It’s a two lane road and going around someone is a feat of strength. We were actually on the Pan-American highway. I thought that was cool. After about and an hour and an half BAS pulled off and started down a dirt road. We were expecting it this time but it was a shock when we first saw it as well.

Well, welcome to Las Cruses, The Cross’s. We can’t wait to see what they have done. And oh my God… the church looks great. It’s painted, there’s a garden, a walkway and two little benches with Iglesia Nueva Vida painted in the front. It is simply amazing.



Everyone who has been there is overwhelmed with how much it’s changed. Ben has to snap us out of it tell everyone to come and help unload. We get it all unpacked, get the layout from MAD and get it going. Today we have three different projects going on at once. We are rebuilding two out houses that the locals moved. It was in the middle of the property and they want it off in the corner. Can you blame them. Also, in addition to the medical / dental clinics with pharmacy we are going to help finish the front patio to the church. As you can see in the picture it’s all dirt right now. We can do that, right? We sure can.

We set everyone up in their places and get ready to open the clinic. I’m on crowd control duty and I hope my Spanish it good enough. We’ll see. The outhouse project is underway and the concrete is being mixed. Let’s open the clinic. We see our first four patients and it’s off! Just like before we see the people who the local church leaders call from their list and I take them to the nurses one by one. The nurse will see one person for every ticket they come with. Depending on what they have sometime you have to treat everyone. If the children have parasites you have to give the same meds to everyone in the house. Many times you can go ahead and treat everyone. They’re in front of you, we have plenty of meds. Just do it.

After about an hour Mike comes around to check in on our progress. We have seen 51 patients and he is pleased. “That’s right where you want to be,” as he walks off. He is doing so many things at once it’s hard to understand how he keeps it all together. Then you see Debra and him talking and you see the anointing on them both and it all makes sense. Almost all of the women have UTI’s and most of the kids have worms. The women don’t have very good hygiene and they wear clothes that are too tight. Bacteria starts to grow and infections begin. The most of the kids don’t have shoes and they walk on the nastiest of grounds. The parasites get into the bodies and multiply.

While we have seen some pretty bad these people are in better health then any of the other clinics we’ve done. The church has really tried to help establish some healthier living standards for the people. They have taught the people the difference between things that can be reused and things that shouldn’t. They have tried to get shoes for the kids and taught the important of clean hands. One of the ladies wants to help produce some pamphlets with even more heath tips. That would be a blessing here. As Americans we see things like this and immediately assume that the people know better but choose to live this way. That just not true. The Bible says; “My people perish for lack in knowledge.” Outside of introducing them to Jesus they best thing we could do for these beautiful people is teach them to how change their own environment. If we simply move them to a better location and dump tons of money at the problem the same circumstances will soon repeat themselves. It’s about education not relocation.


At the two hour mark we have seen an 86 year old woman with pain in her joints, another elderly women with decreased circulation in one leg and an infection in her eyes. While it was awesome to see older people is was very sad to see them in this condition. We prescribed them the proper meds and walk them over to the pharmacy. Mike asked how we were doing and said he was taking a few people over to see Marvin. Marvin is a man LifeLink found when they first came to Las Cruses. He is 50 years old and two weeks after he was born he developed a fever and the doctors sent him home. Within days his body begin to lock up and muscles started to die. From that point on his mother has taken care of him. He said he gonna take another group over later on.

While their gone we start to prepare for lunch. We’re gonna shut everything down and all eat together. The dentist has been working like mad woman. She has seen about 11 per hour since we got here; and some of those are multiple extractions. She is almost done with her current patient and has 15 more waiting in chairs just outside the bed sheet we’re using for privacy. We let them know that the ladies in charge know that the nurses and dentist will be breaking for lunch and they communicate it to the people. When I walked back over to the nurse they only had four more people to see and Mike was still gone. Looks like we might get done a little early. All four of those patient get seen and Mike is walking up the street with the group. You can tell they are still processing what they have just seen. I asked one of the ladies what they thought they said; “I still have some growing to do.” Is amazing the faith of these people. We stress out of the smallest of things. Where we see poverty they see a great change for God to do something amazing.

Joyce goes to the pharmacy and gather a bag full of medications for Marvin and his mother. We set it aside and plan to take it to her after lunch and we shut the clinic down for 30 minutes. We get the other guys and pass out the best turkey sandwiches the world has ever known. We share stories and look at what has already been completed while we eat. One of the outhouses is already up, the nurses have seen 160 people, the dentist has seen over 16 patients and removed countless teeth and two thirds of the concrete is poured and is drying as we speak. Ben starts to tell us how much never expected to see all this in 3 days. Things are moving at lightning speed and it’s all God.

After we eat everyone heads back over to their places and get ready for part two. There are considerably less people at the nurses’ station this time. I think we may be over the hump for the medical side. I go to check on the pharmacy and they all say that they not feel nearly as tired as they we’re yesterday. I asked Mike where everyone else was. He said that this little village only has about 300 people in it and we passed out 300 tickets. So between the dentist and the medical clinic we have seen almost 2/3’s of the people. People are slowly coming in a few at a time to see the nurses but the dentist is still pretty backed up. Mike decided to close it down. Everyone who is waiting will get seen but no new dental patients. She now has 12 people waiting. The young lady who’s taking the dental tickets says that she has collected all 30. Soon after that the lady taking the tickets for the nurse station say that all the registered people have been crossed off. That’s it. No more registered patients are coming. At this point we still have 2 hours to go and the other projects are still full steam ahead. So… we made a decision… if people some up… let’s get them in here. Slowly over the next hour or so we see maybe 25 more people. No tickets!... No problem!


The second outhouse is built and Johnson is on concrete watching duty. I hear clapping coming from the dentist area. She’s on her last patient. Things are winding down. From the corner of the property we hear the sound of metal clanging. I look over and see Mike looking on. A couple of us walk over to check it out. It’s an old school blacksmith hammering a metal rod use to break rocks from the local quarry. He lives next to the church and helps with a lot of things. He is ripped from years of rock and metal work. Mike tells us that these guy work extremely hard for a living and ask us if we want to see the quarry they pull the rock from. We say sure.

About 400 yards down the road we come to a flat mountain wall that looks like it the middle was bulldozed many years ago. Mike said that is exactly what happened. He told us that we were standing right in the middle of what use to be the middle of the mountain. It has been mined over the years and used for buildings. A little further down we see several “work areas” where the locals come and systematically pound out rock and either resale or use the stone. They climb to the top of the ridge, about 250 feet, and in about 12 foot sections hammer our stones.



The work is hard but they don’t complain. We head back to the church and everyone is done and it’s time to pack up. We load up and clean the area. Mike wants to take the whole group to see Marvin. We make sure the place is very clean and we take the walk over to Marvin’s. Marvin and his mother live in the alley next to the church.

The group walks up to the tin and stone shack they call their home. Marvin’s mom is standing inside looking out the windows calling for us to “come on in.” Come in to what? This is a dirt plot with rusty metal pieces and cobweb laden walls. But to her... it was home. We muster enough strength to walk in but none of was were ready for what we saw. To the right there is a raised fire pit filled with random sticks from the ground outside. In the front there is a stone wall with shelf to hold the four pots she owns. The fly’s have completely covered the pieces of mango that were left out. Through a crack in the makeshift roof you can see the top of the “home” next door. The other room to the left is what really brought the reality of this place to life.


The front of us lies a bent and frail man. Between his disfigured body and his unintelligible slur it’s difficult to continue watching him. The only thing more devastating than his body and surroundings is his own prison cell of a chair. Confined to rigid wooden chair; this room and the plot just outside is all he knows of the world he lives in. His body, permanently tense, gives him no rest and little sleep. His mother lifts him up and takes him outside twice a day; everyday. She lays him down gently on the floor and goes back in the house to get his chair. He is about 60 pounds and his chair is another 40. Both are stiff, immovable and extremely fragile. His spine is curved to the point that only his head and legs even touch the chair but still she takes him outside. She baths him, feeds him and prays over him for hours. He loves the Lord and never complains about his lot in life. He would perfectly happy in his home with his mother and their bible; but still she takes him outside. She has a basketball tumor on her body that weight about 30 pounds. Mike says it’s from lifting him; but still she takes him outside. The nurses say it might have started as a hernia but now it’s gotten much worst.

You would think a women in her situation would fall to her knees and scream at the top of her lungs;” God, why are you so unfair!” Some of us would even call such an act; justified… but she doesn’t do that. Instead she uses her knees for another reason; another reason altogether. She falls to her knees and thanks God for everything that He has done. She thanks God for Marvin and every breathe he has. Why? Because she loves him; it’s just that simple. Mike says that there are many times when they have come over to see them both and she is down on the ground praying and praising God. He immediately not to come back for at least a few hours. Not because she wants her privacy but because when she talks to her God; it’s an all day things. She is a praying woman. You would be too if you knew what happen a few months ago; but that’s a story for another day.

We ask Marvin’s mom if we can take him outside and her face lights up like she’s just won the lottery. “Yes, yes of course!” – “Si, si por supresto!” A few of the guys pick him and feel the stiffness of his bones and know that the slightest push would break him in half. They handle his 50 year old body as if he was a newborn being released into his mother’s arms. A couple of other guys grab his chair and are almost brought to tears; not only because he is caged here day in and day out but because his mother, in her 70’s with a 30 pound tumor, lifts this chair in and out every single day. Marvin is outside and everyone is looking. You can’t help but look. Your first reaction is pity until he speaks. He looks up and see Mike and says; “Marco! Hola Marco!” “He calls me Macro”, Mike says and in a second you see the humanity of Marvin in a whole new light. This is not an unresponsive hospital patient who has little to no idea what is happening around him and can never respond to the kindness you are showing him. This is a human being. A beautiful, fully alive human being who fully rejects being labeled a “vegetable.” He forces every “Those people choose to live like that and nothing you can do will make a difference anyway.” naysayer to come to terms with their words and make a decision about the way they think.

Mike beings to tell about Marvin’s infantile fever and the paralysis that followed. His mother cuts in the sadness of the story and says; “Marvin is celebrating his 50 birthday in a few weeks and you are all invited.” The crowd all laughs and applaud. How they cherish his life convicts us all to see things so differently. Mike says he will be there and will bring cake. As Marvin’s mother translates Marvin moves his rigid body with pure excitement. Almost in response to his joy he being singing. His mother takes the cue and joins in with song and accompanying clap. “Joy. Joy. Joy in Jesus…” The sing about having joy in Jesus and being with Him on the other side with new bodies. It is more than enough to make you cry and cry we did.



After a while we moved Marvin back inside and said “see you next time” to his mother because “good bye” hurts to much. This is Dede and I’s third year and this is why. The faces of the people you touch stay in your mind and never let go. As we walk about Mike has a short talk with Marvin’s mom and tells her that he is going to send her to get the tumor removed. She says; “Well, who is take care of Marvin?” He tell her that the ladies from the church are willing to step in and help. They talk for a short while and Mike leaves. I think she will go. It’s time.

As the group is walking back towards the church I go back inside to take one more shot of Marvin. He hears me coming, leans his head back and smiles. He is a man after my own heart. Till next time, Marvin. Till next time.



Everyone is hugging and waving as we prepare to leave. Is by far the most impactful day many of us have had in a long time; let alone on a mission’s trip. The vans are fill and we are on our way. The ride is about an hour and a half and we are all quite tired; not to mention dirty. We intended on leaving a lot earlier but better late than never. It gets dark quick around here and we still have to pass through the “City in the Clouds.” (That’s really it’s name.) It’s a small collection of villages located on top of the mountain between Las Cruses and Managua. The further we get the mistier it becomes. We are latterly driving through and around clouds. The only thing we can see are the tail lights in front of us, and we lose those from time to time. The only saving grace is that it’s not raining. It rained one year on our way back from Las Cruses. You wanna talk about miserable and scary all at the same time. OMG! Well after about an hour we make it down the mountain. No thanks to the giant concrete trucks with the bad breaks going about 10 KPH. We make it to the hotel, unload the trucks and head for the showers. Too bad the power is off, I really wanted to see my bed before I crashed into it… oh well… hope there’s nothing there.

Dinner is in about 30 minutes and we still have debrief. MAD are so overwhelmed with the amount of work we got done they head out for ice cream. Listen, this ice cream down here is quite nasty but something about being here and being this hungry makes them oh so delicious. We all head for dinner and enjoy a special meal. We get spaghetti and meat sauce. Can you say; Yeah!! We eat like… we like we haven’t had spaghetti in a while. After dinner we all head over to the debrief. MAD are very pleased with everything that has happen and we even given Bethany, BAS’s oldest daughter, a special award. She has been a huge help to us this week. Thanks Beth!

After the debriefing some people head for the people and some head for bed. I’m one on the bed-headers. Good night. It’s been a long day and I need a good night’s sleep. Tomorrow is one of two free days. Half of the group is going to the canopy tour. It’s an awesome sight to see. It’s an attraction where you zip line from tree top to tree top. At one point you’re almost 100 feet up. Wow! This is actually the same location where the Predator was filmed. Nice. Well, Dede and I aren’t going. She doesn’t like the height and I don’t want to go without her. We are planning on going to the market to buy a few things. Friday is the joint market day but this way we get an extra day. Sweet.

Well, I probably won’t blog the market days bit I will shot up a final wrap up of the trip. Even after we get back I might still have some other stories to share. Well, see. Anyways… good night.

Nes

Thursday, August 30, 2007

Day 4

Day 4

Good Morning World! I’m back!

As has become the custom in room 30… the telephone buzzes and the electronic noises begin. It must be 6:00. I reach over and (Owww.. that still hurts) tell Dede it’s 6 A.M. She says;”Ummmmm Grrrrrrr Arghhhh. At least that’s what is sounded like to me. I know what that sound means. That means; “Listen, I know you think you’re helping me right now… but if you touch me or speak to me again you will awaken Darth Dede (Enter Heavy Vader-like breathing) and she will not e very pleased with you. Not very pleased at all. So I decide the only way to wake her up is to get up myself. So I do. I make my way to the bathroom and leave The light on. (Great trick) I do the ole water thing and make my way to the front of the hotel to hop on the wireless. (How did you think I was posting these… come on people.) I type a few things that had happen and I make my way back to the room. When I got back she was up, on the Light-Side of the Force and already in the shower. Sweet, no force choke!

As we walk around the room and run through the normal application of creams and things we noticed the clock getting closer and closer to breakfast time. We grab our things and head over. I walk in the door and everyone is up and there. We are looking forward to today. Today is medical clinic day. A few guys are going back to the construction site but the rest of us are crowd control for the nurses and pharmacy. Sounds like a boring job but I’ll see what happens. Brittany does devotions and we all pray. It was a great morning to get back and get some sleep. Everyone’s belly is full of watermelon and Gallo Pinto… sounds like a plan… but off to the site we go. We have never been to this location before. The city has chosen this site for us to work on because the people are so poor. They are just as poor as the people where we worked yesterday.

We load up the truck with all the medicines and head over. As we have established, the roads are a disaster. You are on a roller coaster ride just going to the corner store. Well Mike gets in front, the white rental van get in the middle and the GMC is taking up the rear. We arrive at the church and there at least 100 people there waiting in line for us to start. The intersection right in front of the church has a really bad road and I ask Mike… “Will the Suburban be able to get through that mud?” BAM! We all turn around and the Suburban is leaning about 20 degrees to the left as it sinks into a really really big hole. With the mud everywhere you can’t see where it is… but we’ve found it.

One day I will load the video for it but for now here are the pics…


It was wild. I have personally never seen a truck stuck in that much mud. The more they tried to get it out the deeper it suck. It went from a half way up the back right tire to covering the entire wheel. The more it leaned I just knew it was going to flip over. I saw it in my head. The truck on its side and us pushing it down the mud. Some guys come over and helped us push, pull and tug the truck but it didn’t budge. The most comical part was seeing the skin and bones horse walk by us as we desperately try to get this massive horse powered truck out of the mud. Mike tied to try the Suburban to this pickup and pulled but the van didn’t budge. We were quickly running out of ideas. Well, Debra wanted us to get the meds out of the truck and see if that would help. So we unload everything from the vans and setup the pharmacy inside and nurses under tents in front of the church. With there being so many people already there it was a little difficult to get started but we managed to get it going. We had to make sure that each person who would been seen by the nurses had a ticket. It seems cruel to tell a mother with two kids to choose which one gets seen but if we try to see the whole village not only will we run of our meds before noon but we will have nothing left for the medical clinic tomorrow at another village. The rules are there to provide order to the system but compassion also has its place.

After we got the clinic setup we open the doors and started seeing patients. The nurses would see them for about 4 minutes and send them inside to pick up the meds and the next person would come in. With 4 nurses we could move through a lot of people at once. Every now and then a couple of guys try to get the truck unstuck but BAS have gotten fully involved in the clinic. I asked Johnson how BAS were so clam about the whole thing. I guess when there is nothing you can do about it there’s no reason to worry. The only reason we were out there today was because the government choose this location.

We had seen about 50 or so people when large concrete truck drove by. Man, if they can’t get the truck out… nothing can. Everyone started clapping and shouting but… they keep driving by. That sucked. Well pointed for them to help us but they said something and kept going. Oh well… back to the clinic. We have to be buffers for the nurses so they don’t get slammed with 7 people at once but also so that the people get coming. A while later the concrete truck came back and they were here to help this time. The pulled in front of us and started to tie a chain to the Suburban. At the same time a Front End Loader pulled up. We turned around and the Mayor’s personal assistant, who has been with us since we got here, got out of a car and stated asking; “Where’s Mike? Where’s Mike?” Debra come to the front and said that he wasn’t there. She said; “Well, I brought these men and they’re gonna get your truck out.” It was awesome. The concrete truck pulled and pulled and the next thing you know the truck is being pulled right out of the hole.



After the Suburban was free and clear the tractor begin to give the standing water a place to go and smooth out the road. Depending on who you ask they might have made it worst but at least there was a smooth place in the road. You know what, if our truck would not have gotten stuck that road would have never gotten fixed. Some people try to look for God in every little thing that ever happens to them but some people know that God “IS” involved in everything that happens to them. My God loves me enough to want to be involved in everything I do.

A few hours later we are getting ready for lunch and the nurses are ready. We shut the clinic down and head for the back. We are all eating and sharing our stories when this guy comes up to the barbwire and starts demanding a sandwich. We don’t make a habit of giving our food to the locals so we said no. Well, he starts threatening to cut his arm on the barbwire if we don’t give him food. The nurses are screaming “NOO!!” has runs his arms down the wire. Susan stands up and quickly hands him some food. My God man. If all you want is a sandwich, take it. That pretty much ended lunch and we head back to work.

The clinic is back up and going and we have about 120 more people to see. A few really bad patients come through and we’ve done what we can for them. Some are even told to go to the hospital. One little girl, after seeing two nurses, is believed to have measles. Joyce is really concerned. Measles can wipe out whole families, even villages. We get her to the front of the line, pray for her and beg the father to send her to the hospital. Several people have holes and sores that were gangrenous. The nurses would dress them and give them ample antibiotics. It seems like we were dropping spoonfuls of relief into an ocean of pain. But you know what, I thank God for it. One spoonful t a time.

The end of the clinic is approaching and we have seen over 300 patients. The meds are all gone and the patients list has come to an end. Mike has showed up and we are in clean up mode. We make sure the grounds are in better condition than we found them. The Pastor is so happy he can hardly contain himself. It’s been a good day.

We load up the truck and head over to the construction site to pick up the other guys. They are only about 1 mile down the road. We pull up and the guys are all sitting under the shade of a building that wasn’t there yesterday. They have laid the roof on the kitchen and are enjoying the spoils of their labor. It was awesome. They have pretty much built an entire structure in under 16 hours.


We took a couple of group pictures and headed home. The ride home was normal and the skies were clear. For the first time it might not rain on our way home. We unload the truck and head to our rooms. I hit the shower and Dede hits the pool. I hopped online and to send a few posts and them BAM! The wireless drops. I knew instantly what had happen… the power has gone out… and then it begin to rain. I saved what I was doing and went to check on Dede. Just as soon as she got to the room we lost power. We get ready for dinner by laptop light. As were heading over we’re sure that power will be out till at least 10:00 P.M. The kitchen is nice and hot but the food is good. We had some “Bobs” and some Gallo Pinto… of course and get ready for debriefing.

The debriefing was good. Everyone talked about their stories for the day and how well we all work together. It really has been a nice group to work with. We just gel. A few bumps along the way but overall we really do gel well. Ha Ha. Gel well.

The power is still off so we all kind of hang out and talk but eventually Dede and I head off for bed. I stay up for a second to finish writing and then hit the bed. I asked Dede if all the lights would turn on when the power came on but she didn’t know. After I was in the bed for about 30 minutes… every light and the A/C turns on. It scared me half to death. Thank God for the other half. I got up and turned everything off and went back to bed. It’s been a good day. Good night for now.

Nes

Day 3

Day 3

Good morning.

It’s about 6:00 AM and my phone has done its part. Dede is not feeling too hot. She took some meds last night to get over the pain from those holes. I think the pain is gone but the drugs are still there. We finally get up and start our morning routine. Wash your face, make sure your mouth is closed. Brush your teeth, use the water from the bottle, etc, etc. Breakfast is about 30 minutes from now so we turn on the tube to see what’s happening in the world. It’s seems as though everyone is now speaking Spanish. It’s the new black. We find a CNN news channels and see the wildfires in Greece and the jazz concert in Afghanistan. Both which are big deals. One is the destruction of history and heritage; another is the birth of them. But nevertheless; the TV landed on Star Wars IV, in English. Sweet. We watch little bit of it and head down to the kitchen.

We get there and I’m amazed that we have all gotten along so well. At least by now little personality things start to appear but it’s really been a pleasant trip. We wait for everyone, or at least most of everyone, to show and we let the games begin. A little grace and we are there. We have pancakes, fruit and… of course… Gallo Pinto. They have a little cereal section as well today. Nice touch. Over breakfast MAD tell us that the government and the power companies are in a little fight so most of Managua and its surrounding cities are going through rolling blackouts. The power is getting turned off from 2:00 P.M. to 7:00 P.M. every weeknight and then changing to 5:00 P.M. to 10:00 P.M. every other week. It might hit us today but we will have to see if it’s a 2:00 week or a 5:00 week.

When breakfast is over we all have devotion and today is Zanta’s day. She was nervous but she did very good. After that all gathered and prayed over the day’s work and headed out. We have about 30 minutes to get the rest of our things and be at the trucks. Dede and I head back to the room and apply all of the many creams and sprays we brought with us. Afterwards we head to the bus and load up the tools for the day. All of the post digger are hurting. I wasn’t until Johnson grabbed my shoulders and said; “How does that feel?” (Insert evil laughter) Then I was hurting for the rest of the morning. Well load up and take off.

The ride is always going to be the ride. Nothing we can do about that. When we get there we all man our stations. The same people pretty much head for the same things. As Dede and I approached the ends of the property with Mike in front of us with a truck bed full of lumber we know that today will not be an easy one. We gather the tools and begin to dig. Oh my God! It hurt so bad. I wasn’t hurting yesterday… today I’m hurting. I shoulders are in absolute pain. I can barely finish one hole with bending over in complete pain. Dede is the same. She looks at me and says; “Baby, I don’t think I can do this all day.” I totally know what she means. Johnson and Brain finish nailing down four lines of barbwire on the post we laid yesterday and them head our way. Johnson looks at me and say; “Bro.” I know what he means to.

After about four holes we had to stop and rethink this things. Even without the pre-dug holes we were moving a lot faster yesterday. We all thought the rain would help but now the dirt is 10 lbs heavier. Well, that goes that idea. Mike must have seen the lack of progress because he sent three or four locals over to help us. Can you say, “Thank You Jesus.” The helped speed up things. While we were working we got to talk to them a lot. Alexander, one of the guys, is really cool. He tried his best to speak to us in English. It was quite funny to see what he knew from American culture. He knew that Barry Bond uses steroids and Beckham was playing in California. Yes, it all had to do with sports but he also had an Aunt that lived in Chicago. I taught him how to say “Windy City” so the next time he sees his Aunt he can make her smile.

The day was long and lunch was short. We had turkey and cheese and was loving it. We took a lot of pictures and tried to connect with the people today. The locals were hitting it hard and getting the post done really. While we were doing the fence the other guys were steady building the kitchen. It looked amazing. They got more done in one day then anyone every thought possible. The frame was done and the roof was ready for nailing. Today has been one of the most productive days ever… No I mean ever… really…

After lunch the post were done so I made my way inside for some pictures. Each day I have taken over 300 pictures. What can I say. I want proof. Well after some great shots of the clinic I found myself drawn to the dental area. OMG! I saw things! I smelled things… that should never be spoken of. But what the heck. There we people in that chair that had some of the worst teeth you’d ever seen. One mad had teeth so bad that Lyn didn’t even use Novocain. As a matter of fact, she didn’t even use tools. She just pulled them with her hands. That’s how loose and dead they were. One guy Lyn had to ask him which tooth he ate with so she could leave that one in. He only had 5 left to start with. It was bad. But he wanted 2 of them gone. He said they hurt; so out they came. To be honest they all needed to come but then he wouldn’t be able to eat. Trips like this force you to see that no matter the country, no matter the nationality… we are all the same. We all need the same things and if one of us can help the other then why on Earth wouldn’t you do it.



We loaded up to leave and the kids cleaned up around the church. I don’t know if you got that… they cleaned up. These kids live in abject poverty. Everything around them is filthy. Is not uncommon to see adults eat something and throw the wrapper on the floor. That’s the way they are… but here… they’re cleaning up after themselves. This is why we’re here. This is why we came. To not only give them something to be a part of but something to be proud of as well. They love this church. They have accepted it as their own and they want it to be clean. That alone is worth its weight in gold.

As we are pulling away the children are waving and running after the bus. We can literally feel the love of Jesus, that we’ve tried so hard to pour onto them, leap of off their faces. What a day it’s been. What a day it’s been.

We ride back to the hotel, hit the showers and head for dinner. We have a nice quiet meal and then headed over to the debriefing. MAD and Ben and Susan are all astonished at the amount of work that has been done. Ben said that they would have never ever imagined we would be this far this soon. You can really tell that God is on our side. It’s been a great trip. A few people have gotten on my never but I’m sure I’ve done the same. Mike made an ice cream run for us and Dede went with him. Maybe one day she will tell us if anything happen while they were gone. When they got back Johnson, Brian and myself were all out talking and having a good time. I stayed up for a while to write this and then went to bed. A few people had the great idea to jump in the pool but the rain put an end to that fun. After a while I headed to the room and called it a night. Wow! I wonder what tomorrow holds.



Nes

Wednesday, August 29, 2007

Day 2

Day 2.


Dede and I got up about 5:45. The hotel will send you a wakeup call if you are brave enough to ask for it in Spanish over the phone. We pull ourselves out of bed and begin our day. You can’t use the water from the sink to brush your teeth so we have bottled water that we pour onto our tooth brushes. It makes things a little more “entertaining” for you. Dede and I have sweet room. It’s a lot bigger and nicer than the one we got last year. Thank you MAD. Both Dede and I can actually be in the bathroom at the same time now. Sweet huh?

We get dressed and make it over to breakfast… fruit, pancakes and of course Gallo Pinto. It’s buffet style so we all line up and dig in. The coffee here must be great because everyone is lining up like they’re giving away free paternity test for James Browns kids.

After about half an hour I notice that Johnson isn’t there. I ask Mike had he seen Johnson and he said; “He’s always late to eat.” Well, late is one thing… he’s about to miss breakfast altogether. So, I find Greg, an awesome guy I meet a few years ago from Jacksonville who is rooming with JB this year, if he’s seen him. He said when he left the room Johnson was still in the bed. Uh, oh. That man is a night owl but I don’t think mornings are his thing. Greg and I leave to go get him and find him we do… smothered between 4 pillows, two sheets.. knocked out cold. Johnson! Johnson! Johnson!!… He pops up… Huh? We catch him up on a few important details… Breakfast is ready, you’re about to miss it and that’s gonna suck for you!” He makes his way to cafeteria as everyone else is leaving and enjoys a quiet breakfast with the hotel cooks.

We all head back to our rooms and make our final preparations for the first trip out. Ben and Susan, the missionaries who live here, are looking great and we see one of their three girls coming down the sidewalk as well. She’s gotten so big. We brought each of them a little gift. What girl doesn’t like lip gloss.

We head over to the loading area; we have a lot of things to bring. We pack in the vans and head out. As much as I like to ride out with Debra, Mikes driving is a bit rough, we had to get into the pickup with Mike at the helm. The trip out was a rough one but it wasn’t Mike’s fault. The rains from the day before have really done a number on the roads. We are up and down like a roller coaster; just without the Carnie. (small hands) We made it to the same place in Sandino where we turned around yesterday and it was nice and dry. We all made it through. It’s still another 30 minutes from the “wash” to the base so we have a nice little ride in front of us. After we get their MAD have to give a little orientation to the new people.

It’s really great to be back but the base looks bad. The fence that once surrounded the land has been taken down, the house that was connected to the church has been removed and the grounds have car and bike tracks everyone. The horses have used the grass as their personal bed pan and it stinks… a lot.

MAD explains that the missing items were all taken by the man they had to have removed from the property. The third world can be a back stabbing place but thank God we have Christ on our side. Everyone separates into sections and all get our hands ready for work. Ben and Susan had already told us that the men would be working on the construction; so away we went. I headed over to the fields with Mike, Johnson and Brian. Mike told us that the previous guy took the fence post down and now the field has become a pass through for cars, trucks and bikes. As he was talking all I could do was think; “Oh my Lord!” Well as we surveyed the land we noticed that there were holes in the ground already. Sweet! Well, we decided to go with the holes that were already there; they just needed a little bit of dirt removed.

Well, Mike knew that it wouldn’t take very long for us to get the post in the ground so we decided to milk it. He told us to get the post in and tell all the women that we dug up and planted 30 post in 30 minutes. Well, it’s true, we did have to dig them and we did have to plant them… just not 4 feet down. Well it worked. We finished and the lady’s were amazed. We were praised from the rooftops and paraded on their shoulders throughout the city… well… not really… but they did think we did a good job.

After the thrill of the easy job was over we had to move over to the un-dug ground. Can you say solid, solid, solid, solid.. solid as a rock, rock , rock, rock. I picked up one of the large metal poles to stab the soil and it stuck straight up and it vibrated like I had just jabbed a steal pipe. I can still hear the sound of my teeth chattering now. Wow! Well, thank God we only have to do about 40 holes cause anything else would be too much. 40 holes! Yep, 40 holes. We tagged teamed on a few and work solo on others. It was so stinking hot that the soil that was soaked from the morning was dusty dry now. The local kids helped us lout a little but we did most of the work.



While we dug the holes Brain and Jennifer would come up behind us and fill them in with dirt from across the field, packed it in and prep the post for the barbed wire. After hours and hours in that sun not only did we finish all the holes on the back and left side of the property but the barbwire was up and several cars and bikes had turned around and found other ways through then the church field. Come on Jesus! Talk about multiplying the work. This is only day 1.

The other guys on the construction team kicked butt and took names. They got a huge start on the rebuilding of the kitchen. The pervious guy also took the house we built him that was attached to the church. Yep. He told MAD that he came up the day before he was getting removed and someone had taken everything. The truth is he called his buddies and they all came and helped him loot the church for everything it had. They even took the wood off the walls. Johnson and I were talking and he said; “Can you imagine the account this guy will have to give in Heaven for this?” Talk about not fearing God. Whew!

Well the ladies had been at work inside helping with the children and the feeding program that Ben and Susan (who will be known from here on out as BAS) do every week. While some were inside doing puppet shows and singing songs others were outside cooking well over 400 tortillas. They were tortilla making machines. They also had to assist with the prep for the lunch. It was some kind of rice and chicken dish. The only problem was the fire wouldn’t stay hot. After a while the locals starting adding some interesting items to the flame to keep it going… random cardboard, papers from the street, old tennis shoes. Whatever it takes, right!

After the children were feed, the fence was up and the construction was at an amazing start it begin to rain. A welcomed stop sign to our intense first day. We loaded everything up and headed home. With pains running down most of our entire bodies it was a quiet ride home. The most exciting part of the trip was praying that we would make it through “the wash”; the low, dirt filled, rushing water section that we couldn’t cross yesterday. Needless to say we made it but it was intense. Theirs is always a sigh of relief when we finally leave Sandino and make it back to the paved roads of the city. It’s not a safety thing… just a … I won’t have to get out and push thing. You know…

Well we are riding with Debra because Mike wanted to drive the van with all the people back himself to make sure they made it through all the dirt roads. Well, Debra wants to stop at La Union; and that is fine with me. I love that store. It’s like a small Kroger or a very small Wal-Mart. I think it’s actually owned my Wal-Mart. Well, we go inside and we get a few things, Hani-Snack Pudding and some Ruffle chips. Hello America. Hmmm. Dede get some Bimbo bread and we call it a day. The lady at the counter rings us up at over 156 cordabas. Since the exchange rate is currently about 18 to 1; the price was only about $8.66. We pay and head back out to the rain. About time we make it home there is just enough time to shower, sit a minute and head to the kitchen to eat.

At dinner we have Gallo Pinto and skis-ka-bobs. I was blown away. I’ve never had “bobs” down here. Sweet. Well, we could only get one and there aren’t going to be seconds, I can guarantee it. Well, dinner was nice and MAD say they want to have a debriefing under the center canopy. He promises it will only be 45 minutes. We head over and we are ready to move. Dede is in a good amount of pain. She worked hard out their today. She deserves to be tired. MAD opened it up for anyone to talk about what “wow” moments they might have had. A lot of good stories came up and we all enjoyed it. At the end of the meeting we give out the Bulls Eye awards based on hard work and team efforts. It was funny when Phillip won it for calling Mike the “coolest missionary” he’s ever known. When someone gets the Bulls Eye award MAD will say their name and we all will say… ______ you got the bulls eye. (You have to be there.) The meeting last about 43 minutes and we are all pooped. Dede goes to Nurse Jenny and gets some meds for her pain, I showed Johnson my 486 pics from the day and I blog until my eye lids revolt against me.

Tomorrow is another day and we will be at it again. This time we will dig and post up the final side of the base and run the barbwire to it. Dede wants me to set the alarm but I think I’m gonna use the alarm on the phone… so let’s see how it works. I think it will wake me up but I really don’t to get left here. Mike will leave you. Don’t get it twisted. It’s time to go to bed. Good night everyone. See you in the morning.


NesBuy hey, I could be wrong... let's have pie.

Tuesday, August 28, 2007

Day 1

Day 1.

Dede and I did some last minute shopping and headed home. The plan was to be done packing and maybe even hit the bed before midnight. Well, it’s about 8 PM and boom!!! The lights go out. This sucks. Have you ever packed for an international flight… now have you ever done it in the dark, with a paranoid dog, in a hot house, with a slightly scared wife… I think not. This might be a human kind first. (Yippee for me.) Well the power is out for about 45 minutes to an hour. We are behind the power curve. We pack like mad people and are done by 10. Not too bad. Not too bad at all. Well, since the power went out we had to restart the washer and wait for that to finish before going to bed and then we had to write out a detailed note on how to take care of the “Queen Mother.”


Queen Mother Bali (The First)


And believe me the list is long. Bali’ism’s are no laughing matter. (we miss you baby!!) KP is our sitter and that in itself is a little nerve racking. Well, we leave a copy on her bed and give 3 to SP. You can never be too sure. We hit the bed around 12ish and set the alarm for 4. Well, 4 comes a knocking sooner than Johnson can say… “What’s Up With That!” I try to wake Dede but she’s not moving; so I wait. 5, 10, 15, 30 minutes pass by and she is not getting up… so I lean over and say; “You getting out of the bed sweetie?” She finally wakes up and says; “Uh?” I explains to her what time it is and the fun begins.

The tradition is to meet at Denny’s about an hour before we have to meeting in the parking lot. We have to be there at 6:00 AM. It’s a good time and we can make sure that people are up. Well it’s already 4:30 and we’re just waking up… yeah we gonna be late. A little running here, a little scrambling there, a little makeup here and we’re off. It’s approx 5:15 but we’re heading to Denny’s… regardless of the fact that we’re supposed to be at the parking lot at 6. We get there and two of our friends are already there. We decided to place a To-Go order for speed sake but we get the slowest waiter in the Western Hemisphere. Hey, Denny’s waiter guy… if you ever read this… “What the heck man! Come on! It was an order of French Toast and a scrambled egg!” We make it to the parking lot about 6:20 but it’s ok because they’re moving slower than the Director’s Cut of “Dances with Wolves.” We finally get all packed and loaded and we’re heading to the aero-port.

Hartsfield was the same ole, same ole… lots of people crammed into little cattle lines while being chastised by angry woman in tight blue outfits. The airport has the unique ability to break down the most respectable, dignified man and woman… and make them cry. We all make it though the baggage and security. One of the teams member did disappear but we assumed that she probably went to the gate without us so we left someone at the checkpoint and headed down starts to find her; and find her we did. Yeah! (And there was much rejoicing.)

We all hung around till our plane arrived where we watched Spiderman III as our in flight movie. (I liked it… Sorry James) The plane trip over was mostly uneventful with exception to a few rough patches that Dede didn’t too much care for. When we landed we all had our 5 dollars to get the country and all of our bags showed up. Talk about favor of the Lord. I can tell this is gonna be a great trip. A worker from the Nicaragua Department of Health is there to collect us… which is great cause we don’t see Mike anywhere. She passes us through customs like Angelina Jolie at a Kenyan adoption agency. We make it outside and there is Mike and Debra Turner… what a sight for sore eyes! We load all of our luggage, cram into two vans and head on to the Hotel Ticomo (Which is where I’m writing this from.)

We all unload the cars, get our rooms and do a little debrief. Mike and Debra (Who will be known from here on out as MAD) gather us together and tell us that they feel led to take us out to Sandino, one of the poorest areas of Nicaragua, to do a prayer walk around the property. We haven’t been there since the first trip and we are ready to see it. They had some legal problems with the man they put in charge for about a year and a half but now that he’s gone it’s ours again. Well, just as we are gathering; the rain moves in and the sky breaks in two. Man, it’s raining like this is the last rain and the Lord has broken His promise. (Gen 9:11) MAD tells us that the rain might just hold us here because the roads are all dirt and the rain turns them into flood plains; especially in one particular area. We wait to out for a while and MAD puts it to a vote… Leave and turn around if it gets to bad or stay and work on some other stuff. We vote to go. Well the roads were a complete disaster. The waters are moving like rivers down mud roads and two taxis are already stuck. After a 30 minute trip we turn around. It was worth a shot. We make it back to the hotel and unpacked the items we brought (Vitamins, Shampoo, Tools, Dental equipment, etc ,etc.)

Dinner (Gallo Pinto) is serve and we all have a good time. Dede signs me up for devotion on Thursday and we head to bed. Believe it or not it’s only about 9 and we are beat down. Must have been the flight.

Dede and I unpack our things, take showers and call it a day. Breakfast it at 6:45 AM. I tried to call Sprint to find out why my phone isn’t doing what they said it would do but after an hour or so I gave up and called it a night. I even had to call SP to have him transfer me to Sprint. I was rough there for a moment. I eventually found out that the Data Service I was looking for doesn’t work here. That sucks. Oh, well. It’s been a long day and I’ve got to get some sleep. Tomorrow is the first full day of work and it promises to be a long one.

Day 1 is over. Now let the fun begin.

Monday, August 27, 2007

On My Way...

Well for the next few days I will be in Nicaragua. Specifically Managua, Nicaragua. This will be our third year to the mission’s field and we are ready to go. Things haven’t been going the best at work and we’re both looking forward to a change of scenery. You know, I haven’t been very pleased with the advertising and preparation for this trip but it’s here now; no need in crying over spilled milk. And yes; I mentioned it but the same thing that happens whenever you try to mention something that hasn’t been going well to the person who is responsible for it… they expect YOU to change it. I think that’s a total cop out… and bunch of crap. (I feel I can be real with you.) I mean, come on, you’ve been there. You see something that isn’t and hasn’t been working so you decide to say something about it. You know, unlike all those other people who notice but don’t give a crap or just don’t want to get involved… so they don’t say anything… anything at all. Well you say something and the person you talk to gives you the ole… Well maybe you’re just the person to help change that. What! Just because I had the guts to tell you to your face, instead of talk about you behind your back like everyone else is, I’m the person to fix it. This is your baby, not mine. I just happened to like excellence in the things I’m involved in. I have plenty of ideas about how to run this nation… I don’t see D.C. knocking down my door. Why. Because just because I see something wrong doesn’t mean I suppose to lead a committee on how to fix it.

Come on leaders! Stop doing that. Take responsibility for your areas of influence and lead. When your people come to you with problems… be man enough, be woman enough to say; “You know what… you’re right. That area does need a little touching up. Thanks for coming to me. You don’t know how much that means. I’m gonna start looking into ways to make this thing better. Thanks for your input.” Actually show them that you are listening and give them some respect. Don’t throw the problem back in their face and say; “Well you fix it.” “Well, you might be just the person who could…” That’s the same as saying; “Well, if you’re so stinky awesome… you take a swing at it.” Stand up, take your humble pill for the day and accept criticism from someone not “higher” then you. (Whatever that means.) And after you’ve accepted some responsibility you can “ask” for their help. Just say; “You know, while I’m working on this do you mind if I give you a call and pick your brain a bit… you know throw around some new ideas. I’d love you hear what you’ve got to say.” This is both honoring and allows them to say yes or no. So…… since that rant is over… Nicaragua. Yes. Dede and I will be there so… look forward to more and more awesome stories from the 3rd World.

Smell ya lata!

Monday, August 20, 2007

How Much of Me is Enough

So how many of you have grown up like me and seen the commercials about the Boys and Girls Clubs of America? I loved watching the kids who had nothing to do and no one to do it with it suddenly step into this whole life if fun and excitement after getting a Big Brother or Big Sister to spend some time with. It was magical, it was heart warming... it was a slick sell to boost the volunteer base of every organization in the great US of A. I think the Peace Corps, the Marine Corps... even the Medical Corps own a great deal to this video. Where would Macy's would get all of it Santa Claus's each year. Well, nevertheless, the point was made. Volunteer, give if your time and the whole world will be a better place.

Well, in today’s fast paced world where we overemphasize, let's see... yeah... everything, volunteerism has gotten out of control. Now, don't get me wrong. I'm all for giving of myself but just like my Uncle (by marriage) Battlecat use to say... "all things in moderation, boy." or was that Paul the Apostle. Oh, I get them confused all the time. Anyways... We have all but removed the human side of volunteerism and have turned it into something that really closely resembles “guilted indentured servitude.” Unlike pure slavery; only the chains of "how many people you will let down" hold you firmly in place.

I freely give approx 12-15 hours a week in some form of volunteerism. And I do it all in the name of Jesus. Why, because I can look back at who I used to be and know that anything I can do to help others get to know and fall in love with the Man Christ Jesus is worth its weight in gold. He died for me; the least I can do it lay down my life for him. My only question is how much of me is enough; not for the Lord but for His service? I know he wants “all of me” but what does that really means. See, if "all of me" means every waking second then I shouldn't even be talking to you right now. If "all of me" means my free time then I would never do anything for Him. How much of me is enough; or should I say good enough? At what point can I say; "You know what, I really don't think I have the time to add one more role to my plate? I know this is important but I really don't think I'm the one to head this up." I once heard a man say; "If you can't say "no" then your "yes" means nothing. I completely agree but why doesn't everyone else. Why are we, even in the church of Jesus Christ... no!! not the Latter Day Saints....(someone will ask)... made to feel bad, Sub-Christian for not being at every event, play in every position and making face every time the doors open. I don't know. I don't know and I don't like it. And I don't like it one bit. And I think it’s wrong.

Buy hey, I could be wrong... let's have pie.

Friday, August 17, 2007

When Desperate Times Call For...

A few years ago I didn't know a lot of people and I tried to hang out as much as possible so I could make some friends. Well, I remember one faithful day when I was invited to hang out with a bunch that wasn't exactly "my type." Now, I'm not snoody but we all have people that we don't 100% get along with. Well, this group has like 5 of those people in it all at once. Between the cackling, geeky jokes and prima donnas it was enough to drive a grown man insane... but I didn’t have any friends. Maybe I just need to relax and get in where I fit in. Maybe I ought to just go with the flow. So I decide to go with them to Discover Mills Mall. Everything is fine until the plans changed. We all get there and for some reason, my mind seems to have blocked some of the incident away… probably for my own good, “someone” makes the decision that we really all ought to go to one of their homes and watch a movie instead. OK, now you’re pushing it. I’m fine with you in public but now I have to go to your lair, I mean home. Grrrrr. And to make matter worst “someone” decided that it would be best if we all carpooled. Now I don’t know about you, but my momma always taught me; “If you go somewhere take your own car… so when you’re ready to leave… you can get up and go.” I said; “Guys, you know what I’m gonna take my car.” They were like no, no, ride with us. I was like; “Naw, don’t worry about it. I’ll drive myself. There’s not enough room in there, anyway.” They were like; Come on. Come on.” It got to the point where if I resisted anymore I would look like a real jerk. So… I got in the car. My spidey sense is going nuts as we pull away from the Discovery Mills Parking lot and I can see nothing but bad images running through my head.

We make it to the house and things are worst then I ever would have expected. The normal annoying behavior that drove me crazy was now somehow magnified now that we were behind closed doors. It was my own personal prison cell. I wanted to believe that as soon as the movie started (Which will remain unnamed... you know.. to protect the parties involved) all would be well but somehow deep inside I knew that just wasn’t true. I made it through the previews and opening credits and awwwww the movie… “Cackle, Cackle, Cackle! Blah, Blah, Blah. Ha, Ha, Ha. My brain! My brain is melting and I’m about to snap. Something, something wrong, something vile, something really rude is about to come flying out of my mouth towards everyone here. Quick. Think of something. Think of something now. And like the first flower of Spring, like the brightest rainbow you’ve ever seen… I get an idea. I take one of the pillows from the couch, lay it behind me and proceed to pretend to be asleep.



I lay there for the entire 175 minutes; motionless and emotionless. I hear the entire movie but dare not move. I hear them say; Man, Avery just passed out. Why didn’t he just stay home.” I wanted to stand up and say; “Why didn’t you just let me drive my own car. I would have left 174 minutes ago.” but that would have ruined the whole thing. I tell you what; after 6 years in the Marine Corps, trained to kill and avoid hostile forces at the drop of a hat… I had to resort to pretending to be asleep. It was a sad day in military history.

Have you ever done anything to get out of a sticky situatiton? Oh, come on. What's your story?

Thursday, August 16, 2007

I can see cleary now

Well hello everyone. I know, I know. I'm not setting a good track record by not posting for the last few days but let me explain. A few months ago the Ministry School Director, from which I just graduated, call me up and asked me if I would be interested in teaching at the next class. Now anyone who knows me knows that I wouldn’t pass that up for anything; so I said yes. Well, I was scheduled to teach some time in October and a few months to prepare. Well a few days later Pastor Johnson called me and asked me if I wanted to preach a two part series at Fusion in a few weeks. Well, of course I do. Come on Jesus! Now, I know what you’re thinking; you can’t say yes to everything, don’t over commit yourself, you’re wearing your shirt inside out again (Oh, thanks)… but these were like 3 months apart from each other. It’d be fine. (Famous last words)

Well do to a series of unfortunate events the school lost a first quarter teacher. Whose up, you got it. Da Nes. (You have to say it like… Da Bears!)



So now I’m teaching at the school right in the middle of my two part series at Fusion. You talk stress! OMG! You don’t know stress till you have to prepare a sermon, preach that sermon, prepare for a class, teach that class and the very next day prepare and preach another sermon. I was moving at light speed and so was the clock on the wall. It would go from 9:25 AM to 5:15 P.M. like it was no body’s business. But you know what at the end of it all I must say that really helped me. I felt like both services went well and the class went even better. Even though I love to preach I am much better teacher then a preacher. Some people can do both but I really think that’s where I excel. Oh, well. More to come…

Buy hey, I could be wrong. Ahh, who cares... let's have pie.

Saturday, August 11, 2007

Now That That's Over...

Well, the first of many has been launched and life has become a whole lot more interesting. With my introduction to the World Weird Web I have a whole new mode of communication which to express the multiple dysfunctions that reside in my brain housing group. (old USMC pun).

Today, I'm a single day. SP and PP, friends we live with, have gone to see their new adopted daughter; HP. Their other daughter, KP, is with another family for the day and my wife is at a mentoring meeting with a few hundred other women. So... that leaves me with the JRT. And I must say… I’m loving it. Now don’t get me wrong; I love my family. My wife is the greatest, awesomest, bestest thing that’s everest happen to me… but who doesn’t like a little “me time.”

What do you do for me time? I guess I write blogs. I need to be writing messages, class lessons and maybe even an opening chapter to book but… I’m not. I’m to talking you… and I think we’re having a great conversation.

Well I'm heading downstairs to what can only be described as SP's very own bona fide “Man Cave.” It’s complete with John Wayne knife and all. Not how many of you can say that... didn't think so.




Buy hey, I could be wrong. Ahh, who cares... let's have pie.

Sunday, July 22, 2007

How lonely is enough?

Look around. Ironic isn't it. In the middle of the "Information Age" where we can see what's happening at West End London at the click of a button and order a pizza from around the corner at the same time we are more lonely than ever. We have the whole world at our finger tips but sink more and more into ourselves. Yeah, we could blame our parents but even that’s getting old. Yeah, they sold us a bunch of lies and told us to "get out there and be successful so you can come back and make your mother and I rich, I mean proud." but they were caught up in the same 90's Greed wave that everyone else was. They told us that as long as we made something of ourselves we would be happy. So, we tried. We went to college, started careers, and gave this whole adulthood thing a shot. What a mistake that was. Herds of late teens and 20 something’s released into the wild with not as much as a clue to what life's all about. Like sending a Smurf to walk the dog. We got out there and life ran us over. Some of us still have the tread marks. They sent us out to become someone but never bothered to tell us that we just might need someone. Where was that class. "Welcome to "Other People 101" where you will discover that there are hundreds... thousands... hundreds of thousands of people all trying to do the same thing you’re doing. Get by!" Maybe if we had that class it wouldn't have taken us so long to notice. But we did notice didn't we.

With what might be the first generational awakening this country had seen since the long-haired hippes combined Jesus and LSD to come up with Christian Tie Dye (ever seen a Shofar and an acid trip at the same time); we woke up one day and said; "What a minute! Where is everyone else? I use to know people." Within a matter of years AOL was a thing you set your grandparents up on, Google could find EVERYTHING and the Net was the place to meet people. It was a brave new world. Everything would change. We were no longer following the footsteps of our "9 to 5" parental units but craving community. We were going to find like-minded people all over the place and change the world. No matter what your cause was, it was noble and huge. We were gonna take this world that had spent some much time building little kingdoms and connect them. What a plan! What a dream! So, what happened?

I'll tell you what happened; the more and more connected we got the more lonely we felt. The more profiles we filled out the more we had to squeeze who we were into little 7 question box's labeled "Tell Me About You." The more emails addresses, messenger ID's and social networking accounts we created the more we lost who we really were and adopted a new online us. The very device that was meant to bring us together simply helped to make us feel even more alienated than before. At least, before, in order to connect with others we had to actually leave our rent spaces with wood in places. Now, in the comfort and fakeness of my quiet, lonely, roommate shared apartment I can talk to anybody and be anybody I want. Here's a little tip for you. There is no such this as an "Online Community." It's a oxymoron. You're online. It's the Internet. Where all the men are women. All the women are men. And all the kids are FBI agents. We have more contacts / friends then the population of small European countries. Tom, obviously one of MySpace's most popular people, has 195677287 friends. I don't know about you but I had to count the number like I was in back at Larkdale Elementary School. Ten, Hundred, Thousand, Ten Thousand, Hundred Thousand, etc, etc, until I realized I could have just put the commas in a moved on. That's 195,677,287 friends. I wonder how many of them know he suffers from Severe Depression? Well, I don't know that for sure but neither do they. You see my point! I want to be known and not as the guy with all the computer friends. I want people to notice when I'm walking funny cause I hurt my left knee and ask me how I'm doing. I want there to be witnesses to my life and I want to witness someone else’s. Call me selfish but I want a relationship with more than my keyboard. (Nice keyboard, nice keyboard...)

Our mad dash for community has sent us all to our own homes, to login to our own computers to IM each other from across the street. (Tell me you haven't done it!) Something went wrong. I'm not sure what but whatever it was we have to fix it or our children will be born monitor tans and permanent carpal tunnel. The more "connected" we get the more lonely we become. I guess the real questions is... How lonely is enough?

But hey I could be wrong..

Nes